I get so tense these days. I know, more or less it's due to my period :-p .. but all these problems that keep coming my way now is starting to make me weak and I snapped at everyone who's asking the same question every time: "so when exactly you're leaving?" ... I'm sorry, but please understand that this is the hardest time for us ...
It's been months that I felt this ups & downs, to keep telling my self to hang on, to be extremely patience for everything, I'd almost broke down. I haven't got a good night sleep without nightmares or worries in weeks. I often woke up feeling despair, yes, Despair -- the feeling that there is no hope and that you can do nothing to improve a difficult or worrying situation -- Cambridge Dictionary.
I know that maybe I worried too much. I know that everyone's doing their best and I know it's just a matter of time .. but I can't imagine the worst thing, if husband and children have to leave without me first .. how long do we have to wait until everything is clear, how long we have to be here, when is exactly we can move on? ... husband keep telling me to calm down, that we're going to leave together around 14th ... but all these obstacles that we're experiencing makes me weak .. our flight should took off tonight, and yet we got this stupid problem impeded our way ..
We always try to see the bright side of things, we always did .. and this time again. We should always believe that everything happens for a reason ... but the hard part is trying to find out the reason! .. or maybe the reason is that finally I received my tax refund?! (yep, I received the money yesterday) :-p
It's been months that I felt this ups & downs, to keep telling my self to hang on, to be extremely patience for everything, I'd almost broke down. I haven't got a good night sleep without nightmares or worries in weeks. I often woke up feeling despair, yes, Despair -- the feeling that there is no hope and that you can do nothing to improve a difficult or worrying situation -- Cambridge Dictionary.
I know that maybe I worried too much. I know that everyone's doing their best and I know it's just a matter of time .. but I can't imagine the worst thing, if husband and children have to leave without me first .. how long do we have to wait until everything is clear, how long we have to be here, when is exactly we can move on? ... husband keep telling me to calm down, that we're going to leave together around 14th ... but all these obstacles that we're experiencing makes me weak .. our flight should took off tonight, and yet we got this stupid problem impeded our way ..
We always try to see the bright side of things, we always did .. and this time again. We should always believe that everything happens for a reason ... but the hard part is trying to find out the reason! .. or maybe the reason is that finally I received my tax refund?! (yep, I received the money yesterday) :-p
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