counting the days to move ..

Yesterday we got a confirmation that our entry permit to Switzerland has been granted by the Swiss authority. We got all the documents needed to proceed to get the visa from Swiss Embassy in Singapore. We need to wait for 5-15 days to get them. Hubby said first we have to get the TAR (travel documents) from his office then we can all go to the embassy to apply. So, meaning ... could be another week of waiting.

Monday night me & hubby talked, I managed to finally revealed all the burdens that I've been holding in for my self. My disappointment about things that had happened to me personally. I see there's no trouble from his side nor the kids side .. if there's any, their disappointment are not as big as I have been through ..

I quit my job for him many times .. even the smallest job that I managed to grab in only 4 months of working that caused me having to deal with the tax office here for the tax clearance, which the refund cheque I still need to wait "shortly" as how they emailed me lately. How short? dunno ..

If I knew that all these permit & visa has gone slowly because of some people in HR office and the process could take 3 months to complete, I wouldn't quit the job so quickly, and I got 7 months of working time (and according to tax clearance rules, working more that 6 months I don't need to pay tax and get into trouble getting back my money from the refund cheque like now!)

Sometimes I feel it's not fair that we women must give up many things to follow our husband's steps. It seems like our happiness were controlled by him, for me personally I fight for a little bit of freedom to decide my own happiness .. I managed to pull my self together everytime I fell apart and move on, step by step, even the littlest step I take is a painful struggle. How many times do we talk about this stuff? how many times should I write again in my blog, I guess everyone (me included) has gone bored.

I've learned that marriage takes a lot of efforts and patience to keep going .. I know people knew that we shouldn't too dependent to our husband, we never knew what going to happen if the husband passed away or run away ..

Women are forced to give up jobs to raise a family or forced to struggle if they want to keep their jobs by juggling work and family 24h/7 or forced to accept whatever job left for them if ever they want to re-enter a workforce or forced to be independent by working at home (if they have the skills and courage to start their own business) ... that's the choices we women have ...