Life is meaningless only if we allow it to be.

Each of us has the power to give life a meaning, to make our time, our words and our self into instruments of hope and future .. and what would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything? sometimes one must dare, if one really wants something.

My new colleague once asked me on the way to work, when we happened to be at the same bus in the morning: "ce travail ça te plait, Wati?" (you like this work, Wati?) .. I smiled and said: "Ouais, ce que je peux faire maintenant .." (yeah, this is what I could do right now. .) then she looked at me and smile, "oui, c'est vrai .." (yes, it's true ..). This is what I could do right now while our children are still young, divided my time, my energy as far as I could, and that's why I took this job.

It's my 3rd week working at the french school, I can say now I begin to get my own rhythm for the job and my body adapt with it, I don't feel as tired as the first week, in fact I've realized that something has improved: now I rarely feel headache I didn't take any paracetamol for almost a month, which I think is a good sign .. Maybe by walking up and down the whole day and being outdoor more actually good for me? :-)

Why I took this job maybe some people just can't understand. Some think why you must bother to work when you know you don't have a helper at home, you're just killing your self slowly .. but you know what? I'm not the only one who do this kind of life single-handedly. There are many people out there who can't have it all that easily, there are many moms out there that just couldn't afford to divide her salary to pay for a helper or they just simply don't want to have one because of their own judgement.

Well, we all have our own reasons. My reason is hope. We never know what the future will be like, and we know that we're not going to stay long in this country. If we move again, I need a good reference from a good institution and I wanted to upgrade my resume after so many years out of work to raise our family. Hopefully this experience could be put in good use ... oh! a little thing that give me strength, courage and happiness at the same time is when I heard my daughter happily and proudly say "that's my mom!" every time she saw me on duty ;-D