Monday, September 12, 2016


Today I made a handmade dreamcatcher from leftover laces and broken wooden ring from the shop's shawl hanger I got in Bali. Instead of throwing them. I make better use of it as a decoration. A Dreamcatcher is a small hoop containing a horsehair mesh decorated with feathers and beads, believed by American Indians to give its owner good dreams. Nowadays it's a trendy decorations sold anywhere from local day market to a flashy shops, and we could also buy a "kit" from a craft shop and make them. But I decided to make my own dreamcatcher. As this is how I dream! :)

Follow Your Dreams

They Know The Way ..

I never believed that a dream could really come true before. All I know that dreams must be pursued and won't come true unless you work for it. But, after I attained some of my dreams, I begin to believe in dreams. When we have dreams (a wish, something that we're longing for, hoping and craving for) we set our mind to focus on it and it moves your brain, your body to do something about it.

I'm a dreamer, but I'm also a do-er. I don't sit around and dreaming a daydream all day, I kick my butt off to achieve my dreams.

I like to talk about dreams with my husband, my dreams, his dreams, our dreams .. it was just something we like to do during our spare time. It gives us hopes. And I think we all need hopes to keep going in this life ..

So, just go after your dream 
no matter how unattainable others think it is :)


Friday, September 09, 2016

A Day To Unwind

Yesterday Thursday Sep 08th 2016 was a jeûne Genevois here in Swiss, so it's also a day off for hubby. While in Vaud (where we live) was business as usual, no holiday, and kids still have to go to school.

Me and hubby were planning to enjoy the day sans kids :)
So in the morning I prepared kids lunch before we went out, and informed the girls that we won't be having lunch at home with them, we're going on a day "date".

First destination was to do cover shooting at Ikea in Aubonne. I was told that they're doing a photo shoot for their new 2017 catalog, and we could personalized the catalog with our own pictures taken on spot, with their special Ikea layout, with a special photographer. I thought it must be fun! and I hope hubby will agree to do it .. and glad he did! here's our infamous ikea new 2017 catalog cover :)

morning, cover shoot for the new catalog :)

We really enjoyed it. 
The photo looks fun and we look fine :)

Afternoon it was time to take our youngest to her dance class in Nyon, and we also took that time to stroll the lake while waiting for our daughter to finish her class. We had so much fun, laughing, re-evaluating our dreams and hopes for the future .. I guess it's true when they said, life is like collecting moments .. and moments like this were just perfect for us. We wish for another million moments that we could collect as a lovely memories, as a beautiful souvenirs ....

afternoon stroll ...


Tuesday, September 06, 2016

This is me, now.

There was a time I packed my dreams away.
Living in a shell, hiding from myself.

There was a time when I was so afraid.
I thought I'd reached the end,
But baby that was then
I am made of more than my yesterdays.

This is me now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.

I have to decide,
Was I gonna to play it safe.
Or look somewhere deep in side,
Try to turn the tide,
And find the strength to take that step of faith.

This is me now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around
I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is me now.

And I have the courage like never before, yeah.
I've settled for less now I'm ready for more,
Ready for more.

This is me now, and I am breathing in the moment.
As I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is me now.

I'm living in the moment
I look around I can't believe the love I see.
My fears behind me, gone are the shadows and doubt
That was then, this is my now.
This is me now.

- Jordin Sparks

endurance & hard work, healthier & happier 
After kids back to school in late August, and a successful collaboration and meeting with the boutique couple of weeks back, just couple of days ago I also received semestriel (bi-annual) royalty report for the 3 series of my story books for children. 

I forwarded the good news to all people concerned, people who helped me make it: my editor who's been so patience and had faith for the project. My husband who's always supporting me mentally and financially. My best friend in Jakarta who took over the illustration works after I got cheated by a friend, and got abandoned by people who I put my trust on (I don't want to mention names, but if they read this, I hope they know how their attitude were hurting me deeply) .. and you know, I may forgive but I won't forget, why? I'm not a saint, that's why .. and it taught me a lesson! never to trust them anymore, end of story. It also apply to all people who treated me like a dirt, who belittle me, who think I'm only dreaming and who doubted my ability to accomplish anything in my life.

They said success is the best revenge. NO, I'm not there yet, my success isn't HUGE, it's small success every time, but those small successes built up through the years, added to my better self esteem, better life and better future .. now I can say to my self, if you work hard for it eventually you will get it. Success is a matter of time. Most important thing for me now, is how I can keep motivated every time I failed. How? LOVING WHAT YOU DO, it's sound cliché .. but it's the truth. How can I keep doing these things without loving it? impossible. One need a passion, follow that passion and hopefully success will be yours.

It's early September now. Summer will soon come to an end, the bright sunny days will turn darker, cloudier and colder ... but I hope I can keep my spirit up, and bring my own sunshine every time :) 


Thursday, August 25, 2016


Hi I'm back from summer break! well, actually 2 weeks ago .. but I had so many things to handle in such a short time.

A couple of days ago I had a rendez-vous again in artraction office in Charmilles, Genève. It was the boutique manager’s request to see me and asked for new creations as a new stocks for ateapic boutique in Vevey, CH. I received her email while we’re still on vacation in Indonesia, and I just be able to meet her last Tuesday Aug 23rd 2016. I asked for a week timeline before I was ready to see her at her office, I plan to use a week-full to recover from jet-lag, tummy probs and to prepare my creations as well .. it wasn’t much time, but I didn’t have a choice as my boss will be going on 6 months sabatical leave starting this weekend! her last work day before leave is tomorrow! Aug 26th 2016. So, one week was all I had.
The meeting was great. My boss was happy for me that selling my creations was actually working as 6 items were sold during my 3 months probation period. So I felt relieved that I passed my probation time and that also means I could continue to supply my creations at their boutique in Vevey. She gave me the address of the boutique before the end of our meeting and before I was leaving her office.
I thank God for everything, the smooth meeting, the selling of my creations, everything ... yes, I worked hard for it and I did all of these alone, but one should always believe that God plays the biggest part in everything you do, without His blessings none of these would possibly happened.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Summer soon

I guess the downside of living in the Swiss countryside is that the weather is cold most of the time. Some lucky days we had sun rays .. but we rarely had a warmer weather, even in spring. Maybe it's just this year, because last year we had a very hot summer. Well, anyhow .. it's Switzerland after all, and we're not far from the mountain and weather can be so unpredictable.

Have I wrote about our adopted cat before? .. uumm .. I don't think I ever wrote about it here. Well, last winter in December we adopted a cat from an animal shelter. My daughters called him Léo (as, in Léopard) because his behavior is a bit wild like a wild cat, and thought that leopard is also in the feline family, so there it goes. He has a grey and white coat and according to his medical & adoption certificate, he's a grey european tiger race. He's okay. A bit troublesome, sometimes, but he's a gentle loving cuddly cat actually.

Today, as I finished and posted all orders from clients in Swiss last week, I guess I just take a little break before start to do clients orders fro Indonesian clients. Why I took Indonesian orders? well, because I'm going there this summer holiday, so why not making some cash too while I'm at it? profit wise, I don't think I'll make much as I'm going to adjust the price to IDR which is way bellow what I'm selling in CHF here, but I don't think I'm selling myself short, I'm just selling out some creations to close friends and family, sort of clearance sale. I know they won't or can't pay for what the price I put here. It's also Ramadan now and Hari Raya soon, so think of it as a gift (a paid gift, for that matter) :)

So while I'm on a day off (it's Monday, and while everyone out to their respective schools or work places - I decided to take a day off). I decided to draw some of my fave spring-summer flowers, it's good for your well-being ... :)

my drawing today ...

and the original pictures I took from nearby poppies field.

Sunday, April 24, 2016

The Power Of Positive Mindset

April will soon change to May.
My birth month celebration will soon be over, but I hope I could continue to celebrate life. 

This month is very colorful to me, while for some people I know it's a bit dark and cloudy .. I'm not saying that my life is always colorful and positive, though .. but I know - by now - at my age, how to deal with clouds or shadow. The key is in yourself. Your mindset. Choose to think positive in every possible way, especially during a darker moments. 

My sunny days were a bit blocked by a cloud on my birthday (on the 12th), my close relatives send me sad news, that things are going to get bitter and bitter for them. That they're struggle financially. They're underwater. One is unemployed and just trying to live each passing day on a very minimum standard of living. Etc etc .. bla bla bla ..  

I knew them. I knew how they manage their life. How they used up their entire savings. How they live their life before it's become this low, this poor .. They used to have lots of money. More than I have in my whole life. But they're simply lazy. What can I say? .. laziness has got the best in them. Skills and knowledge? they won't upgrade. Learning something? their head couldn't take it in. But what I really think is just LAZY, period. They never pushed their mind to think! their eyes to be able to see! .. their not blind and God gave them everything they need as a human being, but they don't use it. That's what I think. Yes, I'm angry ... but they're my family, how could I just ignore them? I can't.

Me and my husband started from ZERO (financially we had nothing when we got married), we live in a very modest rented house, and we both worked until my husband got a job in Paris on 1999 and we moved to Europe and now stay in Switzerland. All of our journey looked so easy for them, but we were the one who live the life as a foreigners in a foreign country with NO ONE not a single family helped us. We are grateful that God give us strength and capability to adapt, to learn, to fight, to work hard, to survive until we're capable to live quite comfortably now with our two daughters. All of it started from a determination and a positive mindset that if we're keep trying, there must be a result.

You see, the power is within, not outside of us. If you want to change your life results, you need to go within and start working on your thoughts. Your thoughts create your feelings. Your feelings determine the way you act. The way you act defines your results. So if you are feeling a little depressed, down, anxious and unworthy, then you know the only way to change that is to go to your thoughts. You are the one who control it, and with the help from God, God willing make a way. That's what we did and we believed.

.. and back to talk about my needy family back home .. I still think they have hopes. We could only help what we could help, but we can't provide financial security, it's not helping them, teach them to fish, don't give them the fish ready to eat every time .. they should be able to get back on their own feet. That's what me and husband trying to do to them when we visit them this summer .. hopefully they'll understand and willing to change .. for their own sake!

Sunday, February 28, 2016

Titanic, 1997

As Leonardo DiCaprio won Oscar 2016 for Best Actor and posed with Kate Winslet I can't help recalling .. when they're together in The Titanic movie back in 1997. I could never forget the film .. and how could I forget, it always has a very personal meaning to me .. as in 1997 when the movie was out in the cinema we were just married and moved to live in Bangkok, Thailand.
I came to watch the movie .. alone. Yes, alone. We were just moved to a new country where I don't speak the language (although English was widely accepted anywhere), I can't read Thai character, I have no families living there, no friends and no job. Great. Oh .. yes, I have a husband, but he's out working from 9 until late, busy with his projects. So, I didn't mind going to the movie alone.
The film - as you may also know - was sad .. and yes, I cried .. a lots! but that's the good thing when you watched a movie alone .. you didn't care what other people think of you when they saw you with red eyes, blowing nose on tissue, sunk helplessly on your seat when the film was ended ... but that day remains forever in my memories. I heard Rose and Jack conversations before Jack sunk in the depth of the cold ice water sea and died:
ROSE: "I love you Jack"
JACK: "Don't you do that, don't say your good-byes. Not yet, do you understand me?
R: I'm so cold.
J: Listen, Rose. You're gonna get out of here, you're gonna go on and you're gonna make lots of babies, and you're gonna watch them grow. You're gonna die an old... an old lady warm in her bed, not here, not this night. Not like this, do you understand me? ....

I nodded. Just as if Jack was talking to me. And that's what I'm going to do .. I'm gonna go on, make babies, watch them grow .. I'm not gonna give up and sink to the depth of the cold sea ..
[Rose letting go of Jack's hand] " I'll never let go, Jack. I promise."
[she kisses his hand and watches him sink, almost falling apart before she finally climbs back into the water to call the lifeboat back] "Where to, Miss?"
Rose: "To the stars." ......